Hey guys, its me, Tokumei Gang and welcome to my blog!!!

• 08/01/24 I guess for my First Blog I will Say that I am completely awesome sauce and I will always stay that way!!!
• 08/05/24 Blog NumbAh 2!!!!!! I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO TYPE IN HERE BUT IM HELLA BORED SO LEZZ SEE ANOTHA BLOG!!! uhh what can I say? ehhh NEW MOD/GAME COMING OUT SOON YEAH!
• 8/09/24 Blog 3, serious note i was in the hospital on the 7th trying to edit the site and edit a video but I had a weird Bloody Moment if i'm being less disgusting, I got diagnosis which was they didnt know why but I am fine overall, so thats good but i'll try to update and be safer in the meantime Have a good one y'all!
• 8/19/24 Blog 4, still a bit down about a certain someone and some past stuff, but I want the ones who are down to feel good, so for you people who are reading that are having a baddish day, keep your head up, I'm proud of you, and stay cool :)
• 9/17/24 Blog 5, Met a woman i really like, hope this goes better than my past relationship lel, aside from that my illness has been more crappier than usual, I cant eat or even relax at school without feeling nausea for no reason. I tend to freakout over trying to not vomit it kinda worries me and 100% pisses me off, i'll kill it off one way or another, Also I work for my schools Jumbotron now!!! Funnest Job Ever!

• 9/24/24 Blog 6, Me and that woman had officially locked in :) i havent felt happier in a moment and i hope to continue this relationship. Aside from her, my health is doing quite bad... I still keep getting constant nausea, worry to vomit, and lots of acid reflux. I'd hope to find myself a cure but the doctors want me to check an anxiety doc first... then a gastro doc... Anxiety appointment isnt until October 27th, I'll update y'all about it soon!
• 07/10/25 Blog 7, Hey Guys! Been a whole long while since I've typed here, almost a year. How have y'all been? I've been having my ups and downs. Lets start with this, that girl i talked about earlier, yeah we're done now. Had another girlfriend after that and shocker! We're also done (Too crazy on her end...) Illness has been decreasing, increasing, decreasing and back to increasingg. It's up and down. ON THE MEANTIME I HAVE BEEN WORKING ON ZOMBIFARM HEAVILY AND IT IS GOING REALLY SWELL!!! GO CHECK THAT BLOG OUT BECAUSE ITS GOING AWESOMELY!!! I hope you guys have been good. even when I'm not, i wish for you guys to have it swell. Please have a greatt day lads n lassies, updates will be out soon. Love y'all Goodbye!
• 11/17/25 Blog 8, Hi y'all, been a few months, single-ish again now, talking with someone else whose actually quite lovely :D. hi-key yall... i've gained a case of agoraphobia :( deadass sucks when i want to go out yet im so afraid of shit that wont happen. I want to give off a message to say Stay Strong. As much as this sucks i'm fighting for my life to not have this weird phobia. it will die down soon enough! Anyways just wanted to give off a good vibe for y'all stay safe and Buh Bye :D
• 08/06/26 Blog 9 Before I get into crazy details, that female from last blogs was a bust, I had a whole reawkakening in my life and have locked the fuck in. Now this new blog is a Hand Written paper blog I have written in the sense of my personal vent. I have been going through this for quite some time and life has been hurting. Not to mention as of recent 2 people who I thought were my friends turned out to backstab me and make false rumors on my name. H and A you know who you are. Anyways everyone, please read yesterdays note and as always, Life Gets Better :) I will continue blogging regularly.
• 08/06/26 Still fucking blog 9 btw, I wanted to still type in here, Life has been a pain, but that is life. Anyone who says differently is tryna sell you something. Ever since I gained agoraphobia, shit has been fucked. I am starting to go out more (by starting I mean a few months ago so I can fight this shit.) and have been doing well (at least my friends tell me). I figured out why I got it. I was laced. PCP Poisoning is a fucked up thing to get, and I was laced with it from a party. Which explained all the weird visuals I was having and anxiety. You don't understand how bad THAT fucked my life up. A message to everyone, KNOW WHAT YOU ARE DRINKING / SMOKING. If you don't you may end up like me. Fried and close to dying each day. Speaking of death, about 2 months ago I was found dead in my room. The night when I died, I had a bad nose bleed. I went in bed ignoring it thinking the blood went away, but I guess it took and effect on me. I saw what it was like to die. I saw whatever this Heaven or Hell it was... the Ether? So, I saw everyone I knew, Family, Friends, people I just met on the street. Everyone. They were trying to speak to me but my hearing was deafening. I walk to this path, a path to wherever and I see a mirror. As I stare into this mirror I see myself. Just staring until blood comes out my eyes, nose, mouth, ears and pretty much everywhere. Rage fills my body and I run this path, the path got harder. It felt like I was going uphill. As I reached its top, the vision got into a white flash and Boom. The biggest gasp of air, pulse comes back to my body and as I felt my body, I was as cold as a Dead Man with a Blue/Purple face. That part of my life had me awaken from why I have issues with myself and life. As I came back, something MADE me write this poem. I wrote a short poem and it reads,
• I died in my sleep, woke up gasping for my Air.
  I wish I woke up with Ambition, But I Woke up in Despair.
  The blood clot in my nose, Shows I wasn't there.
  So as I sit and ponder my life, you realize Nothing's Fair."
  - Tokumei Gang 04/09/26 4:58PM.
  
• Waking up late was one hell of a thing from that, but in the end you just move on. That's life. Anyways I'm done everyone from this blog, Good Morning, Good Evening, Good Night and Good Day everyone! Remember, Life Gets Better. Tokumei Gang signing out!"
• 08/23/26 blog 10, I wrote this letter to myself in question about love, I have it hand writted. I hope you guys enjoy it. If you need it written here it reads,
• 'Love. What is it? Truly, what is it? Is it to be cared for by another? Is it to be noticed by someone you feel feelings for? Is it a piece of cake? Naw man. Honestly I dont know what love is. Ive always wanted to experience love and feel love, but i feel sometimes I dont get the love i want to get. I dont feel like Im ever heard or listened to or even understood. Ive always tried to talk to my partners and seek a sense of validation, understanding, care, or to even be listened to. I always wanted someone to just sit and listen and understand what I say, what i want to talk about and feel my feelings. I get told by some they are an empath, but they lack the sense to understand how i feel. I get told that they love weird, but get heavily annoyed and start hating me for how i act. I get told im perfect, but they point out every insecurity, boundary (which they break) and thoughts of mine and call me broken. I just wish to find love. Love in the way they would feel the same. I wonder, what is love to them? Do they feel love in the way anyone else does? Who knows and who cares, to my woman reading this, im sorry i dont feel loved from you, i just wished you listened to me more, understand my feelings more, read my body language more, or even love me more. Ill always love you more. In the end, i just want to be loved back for who i am.'

• Blog 11. Life and Death. A message to my friends who i cannot see and a message for everyone to love their loved ones.